And you don't have to read it. It is like a painting of a newsletter you can look at if other newsletters are looking too real. "Imaginary gardens with real toads in them." I'm a gin, a ry; are you? I feel like I should tidy things up if you are, but I am hungry, always bargaining minutes. I need to go eat oatmeal now — I guess that's the news. I should offer you something — something as real as oatmeal. There is a cat sitting beside the computer (more news!). I give her food and medicine a few times a day. She needs it, and accepts. I could leave it at that, but it's too dull — colors are lurking within the mundane, and this is just a little reveal, a peek or wink or something, into what we share that is a bit beyond; I am not behind the curtain, I am a dumb lover of wonder, rebelling, by even trying, rebelling against protective instincts, unhiding, for what. I recently wrote this in my notebook: "Poetry goals — ha!" But if I just rolled with the basic need for gathering resources and resting, that would be it. So I have this here, like a stone — no, like an iron abstraction tossed into a perfectly fine stream just because I have hands for it, and I want to meet eyes with anyone momentarily and hold it a bit longer, while the stream, with imaginary toads in it, rushes past, and it feels cool — is this cool? Are we cool? I will eat oatmeal now and you are eating what I have to offer, but it's not quite that. And this is not quite the news. The old poets said "Make it new." I don't know what I am making, so it must be new to me at least. I'm fascinated by the ferns opening into life in spiral form. I'm sure there's a name for it, but you've read enough
Real newsletters unfurling on my block (left); Imaginary ferns (detail) from a poster I bought recently (right)
Also
Here is a recording of song I've been working on: Cross Tense (2025.04.22)
And here is some music I've been listening to:
Tea Newbs Whatever Hour Vol. 4
Listen on Spotify, and if you know how I can share a link for other platforms, please let me know!
Abatatchen Hoy - Alemu Aga \ I Paint a Design - Michael Hurley \ Ptah, The El Daoud - Alice Coltrane \ Air - 2010 Remaster - The Incredible String Band \ The Garden of Jane Delawney - Trees \ Fasiribo (Apala) - The Lijadu Sisters \ Meatus - Hello Ocho \ Hatonal 2 - Merzbow \ Route 5 - Live in Seattle - Maher Shalal Hash Baz
Thanks for looking. Did I make you? I thought I had grown out of that, but have found a career in marketing, so made you look is my livelihood it turns out
